Hayden Panettiere
Giving Start Practically Took My Life!!!
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Hayden Panettiere is pulling again the curtain on a number of the darkest chapters of her life … together with practically dying throughout childbirth and battling postpartum despair after welcoming daughter Kaya with former fiancé Wladimir Klitschko.
The actress sat down Monday with CBS Information’ Gayle King to advertise her new memoir, “This Is Me: A Reckoning” … and spoke candidly about how what ought to’ve been one of many happiest occasions in her life spiraled into one thing way more painful.
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Try the clip … Hayden says she had a “wonderful pregnancy” whereas courting Wladimir … however issues took a terrifying flip throughout supply: “I had a really rough birth to the point where I almost didn’t make it through.”
The previous “Heroes” and “Nashville” star says the postpartum despair hit virtually instantly after Kaya was born … regardless of desperately desirous to turn out to be a mother.
“There I am with this beautiful, healthy, beautiful baby girl and this very fortunate life … and I could not for the life of me be happy,” she stated. “I was so depressed.”
Hayden admitted the expertise left her feeling disconnected from the model of motherhood she’d imagined for herself … including, “I had all these ideas in my head of what I wanted to do as a mom, as a parent … and I think I was also scared because of what my mom did to me that I might do that to my child.”
Panettiere additionally opened up about her present relationship with Kaya, who lives abroad with Wladimir in Ukraine … saying the 2 stay shut regardless of the space.
“I’m so blessed to have a great relationship with her,” she stated. “I fly over there as much as I can. I’m on FaceTime with her all the time.”
Hayden additionally mirrored on her difficult relationship along with her mom, Lesley Vogel, who has been outspoken concerning the memoir — accusing the actress of giving her “20 years of trauma” — in addition to the emotional toll of rising up in Hollywood after changing into a breakout TV star at simply 16 years outdated.
The memoir dives into dependancy, abuse, remedy and restoration … with Hayden saying she lastly needed folks to see the “rawest version” of herself after years of hiding behind fame.
